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Last week, on Wednesday, January 15th, 2014, my life and that of my 18 year old daughter, Victoria, were shattered beyond recognition. My lifemate, Laurie Ellen Wood Brandt, who had been married to me for just over 30 years, and who was the mother of my only child, was taken from us by a sudden and totally unexpected heart attack. She was only 62, and she had not been ill, nor had she a history of heart problems, other than high blood pressure. On the day she passed, she had complained only of minor aches and of having been sick to her stomach after lunch, and we thought she merely had a cold. I had spoken to her face to face at about five PM, just minutes before she passed, and she seemed fine - merely a little tired and run down, as one would expect from a minor cold. I went to another room in our home and thought all was well. By twenty minutes after five, when I heard our dog start barking and I went to investigate and found her, it was already too late. My own efforts with CPR and the efforts of the paramedics that arrived within 5 minutes could do nothing to save her. The autopsy indicated that her heart was so clogged with plaque that nothing would have been likely to save her. Yet we had never even suspected there was a problem with her heart - she had no symptoms at all, before the end.
My sister, Linda Brown, flew from Portland to Texas on Friday the 17th, to be with us for the weekend and give us her love and support. She was very helpful to us, and I thank her so much.
On the Saturday following Laurie's passing, the 18th, we held a wake for her, on very short notice, and directly invited about 14 local friends, asking them to pass the word to others in the local SCA and Pagan communities. Laurie didn't want a funeral. She wanted people to have a party and celebrate her life, not mourn her passing. Well... 24 people gathered that night to celebrate her life and exchange happy memories of how Laurie touched their lives. It was the most people who have ever been in our home at one time in the 20+ years that we have lived in Texas. Quite literally hundreds of other people have heard of our loss from where we or friends have posted on the Internet, and have contacted us with their condolences and offers of support and compassion. Some friends and coworkers even offered to come to our home from distant places, to help in any way they can.
Laurie is also survived by two older sisters, who live in Portland, Oregon. She will eventually be interred in Portland at Willamette National Cemetery, where my parents and grandparents are burred, in the niche that my own remains will go to when my life journey comes to an end - hopefully many years from now. We had plans of moving our family back to Portland Oregon this Summer or Fall, and Laurie was looking forward to returning there. My daughter and I will still move there, but Laurie will arrive sooner than we will. Victoria and I are still very much in shock at the loss, but we are determined to survive and to support each other. Laurie will always be remembered in our hearts, and in the hearts of many other friends and family members. May she rest in peace.
My sister, Linda Brown, flew from Portland to Texas on Friday the 17th, to be with us for the weekend and give us her love and support. She was very helpful to us, and I thank her so much.
On the Saturday following Laurie's passing, the 18th, we held a wake for her, on very short notice, and directly invited about 14 local friends, asking them to pass the word to others in the local SCA and Pagan communities. Laurie didn't want a funeral. She wanted people to have a party and celebrate her life, not mourn her passing. Well... 24 people gathered that night to celebrate her life and exchange happy memories of how Laurie touched their lives. It was the most people who have ever been in our home at one time in the 20+ years that we have lived in Texas. Quite literally hundreds of other people have heard of our loss from where we or friends have posted on the Internet, and have contacted us with their condolences and offers of support and compassion. Some friends and coworkers even offered to come to our home from distant places, to help in any way they can.
Laurie is also survived by two older sisters, who live in Portland, Oregon. She will eventually be interred in Portland at Willamette National Cemetery, where my parents and grandparents are burred, in the niche that my own remains will go to when my life journey comes to an end - hopefully many years from now. We had plans of moving our family back to Portland Oregon this Summer or Fall, and Laurie was looking forward to returning there. My daughter and I will still move there, but Laurie will arrive sooner than we will. Victoria and I are still very much in shock at the loss, but we are determined to survive and to support each other. Laurie will always be remembered in our hearts, and in the hearts of many other friends and family members. May she rest in peace.
Name change
Hi everyone! I finally changed my name here, to something more relevant to my current life, a feminine name relating to my current artistic efforts. So I am no longer going to be PorterMZDM, but will now be known here as KimberlyMoonglow. But I still won’t be using this account very much, I am afraid. Honestly, I only keep this account going right now because this is where I can follow art from one specific artist. About the new name… I am writing a fiction story series called ‘Die Role’. The central character of the story is an 18 year old timberwolf girl named Karen Bright, who unfortunately finds a cursed necklace. The curse causes daily changes to her stature, physical gender, gender identity, and sexual orientation. As Karen, she is a petite girl, just 4’ 11” tall. She has, so far, been changed to three other outward appearances. One is a statuesque amazon version of herself, a muscular, 5’ 10” tall timberwolf girl, who refers to herself as Kimberly Moonglow. Since her Kimberly
Happy birthday to me!
Guess I am officially a fossil now. Today is my 65th birthday! At least, that’s what my birth certificate insists is true. I prefer to think of myself as “27, with lots of experience”, LoL!
I have boobies! Yay!
Today, after about two and a half years of hormone therapy and living full time as a woman, I finally got my breast augmentation surgery! I checked in at 10 AM today (Tuesday 11/10), and was released to my sister in law’s care by 4:30 PM the same day. Staying with her to rest and recover. I should be able to drive to my home (2 hour freeway trip) this Thursday evening or Friday morning. Pretty low pain level, even without the painkillers they provided for me. 2 to 3 on a ten point scale. Honestly, the sore throat from having an anesthesia tube down my throat is more annoying than the tight/stretched feeling in my chest from gaining almost two full cup sizes! I went from a scant B cup to a full C cup size, with a 38” band size for my bra. Nicely proportioned now, while not so overly large that my boobs are the first things people notice about me. I am so happy! Yay! (SFW photos to follow, in a few days.)
Devious Journal Entry
This has been a year of drastic changes for me. I am transgender, and I am now transitioning fully from male to female in real life. As of August 2018, I have begun living full time as a woman.
It’s time my profile picture reflected my female identity. I will be using an image for my profile which I created for my male story character, Hans Bernerholdt, when he cross dresses as “Hannah Krause”. While Hans has probably been the character in my stories I most identified with, he will not be following my path to become female full time.
I am going to leave my account name as PorterMZDM, for now. After a few months, I will pro
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I feel horrible for coming here so late. I fell off the face of the earth and I only found out about this now.
Please accept my deepest condolences, old friend. I don't know if you'll read this or not, I don't know f you use this account or not, but if you do... I'm so sorry.
-Maus
Please accept my deepest condolences, old friend. I don't know if you'll read this or not, I don't know f you use this account or not, but if you do... I'm so sorry.
-Maus